singleness... oh joy... :)

Remember me mentioning that I was asked to be an adult table leader for the Chrysalis Flight weekend this coming January?  At the time I was asked to lead the talk on prayer.  That’s very cool… I’m a big fan of prayer. :)  I’ve seen so obviously the results of people praying all over the world.  But this morning I awoke to find a new challenge presented to me.  I was emailed and asked if instead of the prayer talk, I could do the talk on singleness.  My first reaction?? I’ll be honest.  It was something along the lines of… “ouch, it’s beginning… the lovely life of singleness and assuring those younger than me that ‘it’ll be ok’.”  But once I prayed about it and really thought  it through, I consider it an honour to be able to talk to these girls and share a real part of my life with them.  Not that prayer isn’t a real part of my life, but I have no choice but to be single right now.  So I think it will be a challenge to prepare and to give this talk, but I know it’s God’s way of assuring me that I am walking in His path right now. :)  I sure do hope I’m not giving this talk for all the years to come though!

<><Bonnie

nice quote

I just watched the movie, "Shall we Dance"... and this quote from it is quite profound. :) Just thought I'd share...

Why is it that people get married?
Because we need a witness to our lives.
There’s a billion people on the planet.
What does any one life really mean?
But in a marriage, you’re promising to care about everything…
The good things, the bad things, the terrible things, the mundane things,
All of it… all the time, every day.
You’re saying “Your life will not go unnoticed because I will notice it.
Your life will not go unwitnessed - because I will be your witness.”
Mrs. Clark, "Shall We Dance?" 2004


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cleaning

I don't have all that much to update on right now. Last night I went to a real Southern Baptist pot-luck (so maybe there are some good things about going home! haha). All the missionaries from around Johannesburg got together to have a farewell dinner for the Bryants (who are going to Kenya) and the Lechners (who are going to Mozambique). I didn't know this, but they also included me! (who's going to America... man, those people need Jesus! hehe --- just kiddin' --- sort of ---) Anyway, I thought that was really sweet of them, and I didn't even know about it. I tell you what though, a lot of people used their American ingredients to make some of the dishes, and it was so wonderful! I mean, South Africa definitely has plenty of it's own awesome stuff, and I don't really miss much from the States, but when you have something you haven't had in a while, it's quite nice. :) So anyway, that was fun. And Melissa came too, which was also really nice. Glad to be hanging out with her a little more before I go back to NC.

I'm about to go pick up a friend of mine who's going to help me clean up my flat. It's pretty much empty now, but it needs one last good cleaning before the landlord comes to check it out. It still needs to be cleaned up from the flood a few weeks ago. My kitties are still living in there with a few pillows and blankets. Poor lonely kitties. Still don't have a solution for them. I'm working on bringing them home though! (the 2 little ones) I'm still waiting on a price for what that will cost... check out this cute website... http://www.globalpaws.co.za/travel.htm That's the one company that at least has contacted me (but still not with a price!). I so hope I can afford to get them home!! I might not be as sad if I knew I'd have my African kitties with me! haha Oh well... I'd better go get to cleaning.

Tonight's my last Friday night in Joburg - how very crazy is that!? And I don't even have plans... now THAT is sad. I'm sure something will come up before too long. :)

Cheers,
Bonnie B.

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Mom

Tonight my Mom called me right before Bible study. It was perfect timing. She gave me some much needed and highly appreciated advice. Moms are good for that. But what’s funny is that for a long time I wasn’t sure if we held the same views on the subject we were discussing. But for once she gave me the advice that I knew I needed to follow. God’s teaching us both – He’s cool like that. Sorry I can’t elaborate more on here, but hey, mother-daughter talks aren’t always meant for public display. ;) The important thing here is that my Mom is the coolest, and I can honestly say that I am looking forward to living under her (and dad’s) roof again and learning more from her. God is good! Amen :)

Hello from the Holiday House

I’m in the Holiday’s house now. It’s nice, but very quiet and I miss my kitties very much. The DLS has been acting up today for some reason, so I couldn’t really enjoy it much, but that’s ok… I have it now and it’s SO nice not to be in a big hurry while I’m online.

This morning I realized that there was no bread in the house… I don’t eat bread all that often, but for some reason this morning I was sad that I didn’t have any! (not like really sad, but more like, “man… wish I had some bread…”) :) So… I made some! Granted, it would’ve been much faster to just go buy some, but hey, I wanted the experience. So now I have learned how to make bread. And it’s pretty yummy if I do say so myself! Looks good, don’t you think? I also baked brownies for Bible study tonight. That was fun.

Oh, my tooth seems to be fine now. Apparently, the whole area around my tooth was “traumatized” by the root canal and that was what was hurting. Interesting… well, I think I’m off to bed soon. Thanks for checking in on me!

Cheers-
Bonnie

I'm a mess!

So, it's 3:30am, and I am awake. Why am I awake when I should be asleep!? Well, the way I figure, there are many factors in this equation: 1)the movers are coming in the morning and I am anxious about that 2)I have a cold, and a really sore throat right now and 3)my tooth still hurts. Now, the first 2 are normal, but my Mom assured me last night that the 3rd is not normal. And she has to be right. I think I'm going to call my dentist in the morning and say something to the effect of, "umm... if you deadened the root, then HOW is it still hurting!?" I mean really... common sense tells me that it shouldn't hurt enough to wake me up, and I am pretty sure that the tooth is what actually woke me up since I tend to grind my teeth when I sleep (my bad). The sad thing is, I originally had a dentist appointment for tomorrow but I had to move it because of the movers coming - dang! Bad timing! Oh well... so I've probably just ODed on ibuprofren and I'm just waiting for it to take effect. I'm hoping it will help my sore throat too. I really am a mess!! So while I wait for the meds to take effect, I thought I'd put a few pictures here for you of my last day yesterday at Rand Leases. I'll write more soon about how it went, but for now visuals will have to do. :) I'm too tired to write much more than this!! :)

(singing with the kids at Rand Leases)

(Momo - pronounced "moo moo" - when I first started coming to Rand Leases back in February, Momo was so scared of us. If I tried to hold her or even get too close she'd cringe and run away as soon as possible. Now she's the life of the party! It's been awesome to see the change in this little girl!!)
(Momo is Gareth's little pride and joy. They're inseperable at Rand Leases. It really is quite cute!)
(This is Hope, Nurse's baby sister. She also used to be scared of me! But now I think we're cool. ;))
(I will write more about this next time I write, but these are 2 young guys from the Braamfischerville church who are now helping Nurse teach Sunday School! What an answer to prayer these guys are!!!!!)

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more fun with the Allens

The Allens (missionary family from Swaziland) came into Jo'burg to pick up Steve's parents from the airport. They invited me to come for dinner and they treated me! Lovely... :) Isn't this an adorable picture of their daughter, Lacie? She's such a wonderful baby! I hope I can be so lucky as to have a little girl like her some day!!

My mood has much improved since my last post. But please keep praying for me. I know that these next 2 weeks are going to be an emotional roller coaster for me, but I also know that God's wonderful grace will bring me through! Yesterday I read Psalm 145 and one particular verse really stood out to me...

"The Lord is good to all, And His tender mercies are over all His works." Psalm 145:9

Eph. 2:10 (which is very special to me on many levels... it was the first verse that I ever chose to memorize, and I learned it the same weekend I gave my life to Christ) reminds me that I am His workmanship... His masterpiece... His art work. So, therefore, His tender mercies are over ME! I am so glad to know that the God we serve is tender. Sometimes when I'm feeling emotionally drained and don't even want to talk to God, it's awesome to know that He's tender, and His mercies are still here for me. God is good!

On another note, PRAY FOR ME tomorrow! I'm going in the morning to have a root canal. OUCH! I've never had one before, but I have a feeling it's going to be painful. I'm still taking tylenol for the work the dentist did on my tooth on Tuesday! He might need to prescribe something strong for me this time. Yikes!

Oh... and just so you know... I just killed the 3rd parktown prawn of THIS WEEK! I am so ready to be out of this flat and rid of these stinkin' (literally) bugs!

And on that note... goodnight! :)
Bonnie B.

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A day in the life of the moody Bonnie

I went to the dentist today. After he drilled for what seemed like forever, he finally finished. But to my dismay, he told me I have to come back to have a root canal done!! Yikes! So now my mouth hurts and I can anticipate more pain. Ouch. I found out today that my old roommate can't take the kittens like we thought she might be able to. It's not her fault, but I'm still really really sad about it. I have less than 2 weeks to be out of this flat and to find them homes. And things aren't looking good. I love my kitties. You might laugh or joke about that, but go ahead. I'm really sad. So ja... I've not been the typical happy Bonnie today/tonight. I went to Bible study, and everyone could tell something wasn't right. I feel like I should be happy. I'm a missionary... a strong Christian, and I totally believe in God's sovereignty. So why do I let things bother me? Aye... the heart of a girl is a confusing thing. I feel bad for my friends who saw me tonight. I felt like a burden to them... being all sad and stuff. Perhaps I should've just stayed home, but then again, my friends love me, and they want to be there when I am hurting. Man, my friends are the coolest. What would I do without them? So here's proof ladies and gentlemen - missionaries are not perfect! We get confused, and sad and our hearts sometimes get the best of us. Hooray! We're human too! haha So just pray for us (and for me) ok? Thanks. :)
Cheers -
Bonnie

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Parktown Prawns

This one was in my bathroom today. SEE why I don't like them!!!!!


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Recent pictures

I've finally updated my webshots photo albums with some pictures of my Northcliff friends and with some pictures of my farewell party/braai last Saturday night. Please have a look! :) The braai was absolutely amazing. I couldn't have asked for a better time, and despite the horrible weather that we had Friday night (see my last post), Saturday was absolutely gorgeous. God was looking out for me. Lots of people came... it was the biggest party I've ever had - literally! Which is interesting because I've only been here for a year and 9 months, and yet God has so richly blessed me in that short time. So many of my friends were there... from friends I met my first few days, to friends I've only met a few weeks ago! Good food... great friends... awesome memories. All in all, it was more than a success! Oh, and Rog... if my video camera were digital, I'd find a way to put your message online, but alas, it is old and I have no clue how to get something like that online. But yes, you DO win the prize for the most creative message!!! I laughed soooo much, which was great, because your message was right after a kinda serious one. Perfecto!

Love you guys!
Bonnie

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So I thought I liked storms...

Last night I was about to go to bed... I was quite peaceful... there was a great big storm outside, I was nice and warm in my bed, and I was thinking about my party that's today! Then, all of a sudden I noticed water coming into my room on the floor. I thought the toilet was overflowing, and jumped up to go fix it (and move the couple of boxes that are near the bathroom). Well, much to my surprise and fright, the water was not coming from the bathroom, but from both of my front doors, and it was pouring in!! I didn't know what to do. My entire floor was covered in at least 2 inches of water. Let me remind you that I have been packing, and there are lots of cardboard boxes all over the place! So I started running around like a crazy woman treying to move the boxes to a higher place so they wouldn't get wet. Oh, and periodically the lights would go off, so I'd have to put the box down, and go flick the switch so I could see again. I also noticed that some of my electrical cords are on the floor, so I quickly switched off the power source for them and got them somewhere dry. I was mildly shocked by my lamp in the process, but nothing seriously thankfully!! Needless to say, I was crying and saying "what do I do?" to absolultey no one (except my cats). It's in these moments that I hate living alone. There wasn't much I could do about it until the rain slowed down, allowing the water from in front of my flat to drain some. Once it lowered, I began sweeping the water (I felt like I was rowing a boat!) out the front door. I did that for about an hour and a half until I just couldn't take it anymore, and the bulk of the water was gone. Talk about exhausted in more ways than one. The water wasn't nice, clean rain water either... we're talking water plus all the dirt and plant life that had come loose in the storm. By the time I gave up, I was cold and felt disgusting (for a lot of the time my feet were actually under water)! Every single towel (except one I saved for this morning) is soaking wet (and I don't have a dryer to dry them!). So... here I am about 9 hours later, and thankfully, most of the left over water has dried. The carpets are still wet, but hopefully they're air out. Thank the Lord I was able to talk to a friend of mine before I went to bed... he definitely helped me calm down and take my mind off the calamity! (Thanks, Eric!) Poor guy also got an earful though when I realized that another parktown prawn was right beside my bed!!!! Yes, I freaked, but I was able to get it into a cup and I took it outside. Talk about a crazy night. I didn't sleep well at all... every little noise woke me up. I was worried that more rain would come and then my flat would flood again, or that there were more parktown prawns in my room. Not a good way to spend the night before my big party! I'll be so tired!! I'm sure I'll wake up though when people are there and I'm in the moment. ;) Anyway... I'd better get my last minute stuff done before I go to Durban Deep this morning and then to Casey's to get ready for the party!! Yay for parties. :)

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It's raining, it's pouring...

HOORAY! I'm in the middle of the first big storm that I've seen this season so far. It's tried to rain a couple times before and threatened to be a storm, but now it's really thundering and lightening and raining. And I couldn't be more happy! I love storms when I can enjoy them from inside. BUT I do hope it doesn't storm like this tomorrow for my farewell braai!!!!

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another sappy story

I know I am always referring you back to this blog, but I can't help it! It's a girl blogger's best friend. hehe Check out this cool story on http://girltalk.blogs.com It's such an interesting story. Just proves that when God wants 2 people together, even THEY can't thwart His plan. :-)

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Hooray for Ministry opps in the States!

How very exciting! I just got an email from a lady from the church I grew up in. She is leading something called a Chrysalis Flight. I doubt you guys have heard of that, but it's kind of like a Spiritual Renewal retreat for highschool girls. I went when I was in Grade 10, and it radically changed my life! It made me get real with God - very cool. Anyway, Grade 10 was a while ago... but this lady (Cindy) emailed me about a flight that is happening in January and she asked me to be an Adult Table leader. Wow! I'm an adult now!! hehe Really though, I'm so excited to have this opportunity to be with these girls for the weekend and be there for them as they experience an awesome time with each other and with God. It really is an honour for me to be asked to do this! I'll also have to give a talk (a devotion), which makes me nervous, but I'll work it out by then. :) Anyway, I'm glad to have something else to look forward to in the States. God's timing is impecable! :)

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the quiet life...

Well... for those few of you who read this, not much is going on around here lately. I mean, stuff's happening, but not much that you would want to read about (or that I would want to post about!). I just went to a terrible movie called "Sin City." I know... I should've known by the title, but I didn't do the choosing. Let's just say that it's the first movie that I'd ever walked out in the middle of!! Thankfully I was busy SMSing a friend of mine most of the time we were in there, so I wasn't focused on the movie anyway. :) So... I'm still working on packing... it's crazy how much stuff one can accumulate in less than 2 years! I'm trying to sell some of my books so that I won't have to carry them all back with me; they're quite heavy! Well, this Saturday is my farewell party! How crazy is that?? It still doesn't feel real most of the time... I'm leaving. It's like I can't really fathom not being here, even though I know it's going to happen - and soon! Crazy, I tell ya. Sorry I don't have much to write about right now... Such is the quiet life! :) I'll write when something interesting happens.
Cheers,
Bonnie

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More recommended reading for the ladies...

This short post is quite good and something that I've found myself thinking about a lot lately. Funny how God does that... He seems to always show me things in themes. And right when I start wondering about things, He puts things in my path (people, books, articles, sermons, songs...) that seem the speak to my situation! Crazy that God of ours is... in a good way of course. ;)

Goonight all!
Bonnie B.

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Hooray for people who pray!

Hey folks...
Like I mentioned in my last post, I had a cruddy day on Wednesday... just being emotionally drained from packing and trying to process stuff. I asked a few select friends of mine to pray for me, and I truely believe that they did! I've had an amazing past couple of days. :) on Thursday I went to college to sit in on a Worship and Music Basics class at ICBM, and it turns out that my lecturer is my pastor's dad! Small world. After that, Melissa came to my flat and hung out for a while. She eventually invited me to come back and spend the night at her and Heather's flat, so I agreed and I also took with us some American Pepperoni that I had saved in my freezer and we made pizza from scratch! Fun times... very reminiscent of old times. :) Some other girls came over for pizza and then we watched a movie. Then Melissa, Heather and I stayed up too late chatting about girl stuff. Man, I was SO needing girl time! Thank you, Lord. :) So... I slept there and then got up and went with Heather to the Baptist Theological College just to visit. That was fun, and it was funny to see how many people I knew there. After that, Heather brought me home and I turned around and went to Casey's house to help a girl with some missions fund raising thing. Later we went to the mall, then back to Casey's house. She invited me to stay for dinner (yay for a home cooked meal!) and then later some other friends came over and we all watched a movie and hung out. Ahhh... such great times with awesome friends!!! I am so blessed... may I never forget that! Praise the Lord for answered prayers!
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I hate parktown prawns!!!!!!!!

Ok, as sad as I am about leaving Jo'burg, one thing that I will NOT miss, not even a little, is the parktown prawn. Check it out...
I have had so many of them in my flat lately and they're really starting to make me angry. I was woken up by one jumping around in a box in my room at 4am this morning. I went to the kitchen to get my big shoe (it was there b/c I'd previously killed one there - which is no easy task!). Well, when I came back it wasn't in the box anymore, which means it is in my room somewhere. Do you think I can go back to sleep NOW? No way... guess I'll get an early start today! Stupid bugs :( yay for no parktownn prawns in NC!!


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Every rose has it's thorn...

Come on, sing it with me!
"just like every cowboy sings a sad, sad song...."
Oh well... never mind. ;)

My friend Casey gave me roses tonight at church. I was having a somewhat icky day today emotionally, so I smsed about 5 of my friends here who I know care about me and who I also knew would actually pray for me. Then two of the gals persuaded me to go to a dinner/meeting thingy at church (I didn't think I should go to a "vision" meeting when I'm leaving in 5 weeks!). But I'm glad I went. It got me out of the flat, where I've been packing and going through memories of my past 2 years. That's emotionally draining stuff. Anywho... I supposed I can't expect everything to be roses all the time, hey? gotta have a few thorns every once in a while. My friends here are definitely all roses though! God truely has blessed me. Well, I'm off to bed. Goodnight all!
Cheers,
Bonnie B.

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A blog of note :)

I know I have a link to this blog on the side of my blog, but I wanted to give it some special attention right now. I’ve been keeping up with the Girl Talk blog, and lately they’re talking about courtship, a topic that I enjoy reading about. Many believe that nobody today still believes in courtship, but these ladies are living proof that they believe it, and that it works. :) I'm just praying that there are still guys who agree with the principles as well!! So ladies (and hey, guys… you could learn a bit too!) check it out!!

http://www.girltalk.blogs.com/

I don't wanna go home :(

It's nothing personal Mom! It just seems that more and more things keep happening that make this place feel like home. Tonight the pastor and his wife (see picture below) invited the young adults to come over for dessert (which they called apple pie... but it wasn't... but it's all good;)). Northcliff Union really feels like "my church." A few of you know that my biggest anxiety about going home is wondering where I'm going to go to church... whether or not I'll still want to be part of the Summit, and if not, where I'll end up. Being part of a church family is a really big deal to me. I really have no clue right now, and it breaks my heart to think about not being at Northcliff. I feel like these people are family away from family. They've become my big brothers and sisters... I don't mean that they could ever replace my REAL family, but I just mean that I feel like I have a place here. Maybe it'll still be here when I finish teaching in the States, and maybe I can come back... but only God knows that! Nights like tonight are so odd for me when I come home and process (because I always process everything!). On one hand I'm excited because I've just had an awesome time with my church and with my awesome friends whom I know God has given me!! But on the other hand is that looming, "in less than 5 weeks this will all be ripped away from me" feeling. Ugh... I don't like it! Please pray for me over the next 5 weeks. They're going to be great, but also very sad and difficult for me. Everyone says that I'm just entering into the next chapter of my life. But I can't imagine a chapter better than this one right now... But I know God's plan is best and will work out in the end!! Here are some nice pictures from tonight. :) Yeah... lots of pictures lately!

This is Pastor Gavin and his wife Joss.


Eric and I ...

Patrick and I (Patrick is dating Stephanie, who also works at Rand Leases... he comes out with us to RL now too)

Dan and Eric... taking the picture themselves, obviously!!


Eric said we were taking "artsy" pictures tonight... here are a few. :)



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Pictures from Swaziland :)

Meet the Allens... this is the family I stayed with while I was in Swaziland. They are also IMB missionaries, and Steve is actually from North Carolina! Lacie is 15 months old, and such a joy to be around!! She's very intelligent for 15 months old. Whoever said that MKs develope slower is out of his mind. Lacie's ahead of the game in my book! I spent most of my time with Monica and Lacie. We did a good deal of shopping, and Monica took me out to the rural area, which is something I'd never been able to see before in my 2 times there before. It was quite an experience. Maria is their language tutor and translator. I am pretty lucky that most people here speak English, but in Swaziland there are many people who don't speak English. They speak Swati, so Maria is quite a help!! She's also just a great lady and she's a lot of fun to be around. :) I love these pictures of Lacie... is she beautiful or what!?! Enjoy! :)






These three pictures are from the preschool (or creche) that I visited in the a rural area called Peace. They meet in a small metal building that is also the church building. Sweet kids!!!





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home sweet home

I’m back from Swaziland, and it was such a great trip!!  It was definitely too short, but I enjoyed it while it lasted.  This was the first time I got to go into the rural area with Monica.  She took me to a tiny little preschool that has just recently been started in the rural area.  Cute kids!!  I’ll put a few pictures online tomorrow, but now I’m tired from being in the car for 5 hours.  Too bad my neighbours are having a party… their music is VERY loud, so my chances of going to bed at a reasonable hour are slim, but we’ll see. :)  I’m going to Kaleo again in the morning… Jason is preaching!!  

Cheers…
Bonnie B.